Meet my biological mother, Sendi Munan, now known as Erika Krishnan. Mother to 5 children after me, namely, Gabrielle, Danielle, Michelle (ripped off my damn name), Isabelle, and Samuel. Wife to David Krishnan. She now lives somewhere in Australia. Hmm. What else do I know about this stranger? Nothing.
Yeap, I know nothing about my own mother. Why? She left me. When I was barely two years old. Not only did she leave me, she hasn't even tried to contact me. I haven't spoken or heard from her in fifteen years. Fuck she left before I spoke, walked or had hair. I know I always tell my friends that I don't care or whatever because "I don't know her. How can you miss or even care about someone you don't know?" and for the longest time I believed that. Recently she's been on my mind and I don't know why. Maybe she's dying or something. Ugh. I should take that back.
I hate this woman so fucking much you have no idea.
wow i knew your mom quite well when she was still with your dad, cant believe she would do such a thing, i guess you think you know someone but you really dont.
ReplyDeleteContext is important, I know this sucks my dad left me too and I haven't seen him since I was thirteen, but context is important. There could have been so many different reasons why she left and I would comfortably bet that you couldn't have been any of them. Maybe she thought she couldn't handle a kid and who knows what other issues were going on in her life that caused her to leave. I know you might think you hate her but maybe getting an understanding of what actually was going on and why she left could help you understand how you really feel, who knows you might actually get along with her. I think you should talk to her if it's at all possible and just give it all a chance.
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