It pains me thinking about my old friends. We used to be so close. We used to talk every night and share everything with each other. Now, I'm not included in anything anymore. I guess it's because I moved to a new school last year. But still! Nothing can change the fact that it hurts seeing pictures and tweets of outings that I wasn't invited to. I don't even know what to think anymore. I've tried clinging on but that doesn't seem to change anything. It just makes me feel even more unwanted. So yeah, I'm done trying. Not because I'm fed up of being the extra wheel when it comes to you guys, but because I don't want to bother you anymore. If you really don't want me around anymore, then I wont force myself onto your lives.

I'm sorry for everything I've done. Thanks for the lessons you've thought me, the advice you've given me, the shoulder you've lent me. Thanks for picking me up whenever I was down, for the memories, for making me laugh when I forgot how to, and especially thanks for being there. Thank you for being my best friends. You guys were once a big part of my life and I'd like to think I was a big part of yours too. I love you guys.

I've been neglecting my blog. So sorry. Been so busy with school and what not. SPM this year. Yikes. Now that I've moved back to nenek's place I'll be on more often. Thank god for that.

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Forever and always ♥

Have you ever been so upset you just locked yourself in your room and you just completely broke down all by yourself? Your parents cant tell and neither can your friends because you hide it behind your laughs and smiles. You are the only one who knows how you really feel. You feel the weight of this on your shoulders and you wish you could share this with someone but you don't bother because everyone else has their own lives to deal with. So all there is to do is to store all your problems, all your sorrows, all your tears, all your hurt and all your pain, and save it for another day. You'll take it all out someday. But not today. Today's not the day.

Cause here's to all those nights you dealt with way more than you bargained for. Here's to the nights where you couldn't wait for everyone to just grow up so they'd stop judging you. Here's to all those sleepless nights you spent crying so hard you could barely breathe. Here's to those nights all you did was wish that when you woke up, everything would just be better. Here's to all those good nights that turned bad. Here's to all the nights you wished so hard you'd be older so you could make your own decisions. Most of all, here's to those nights that came too soon.

I can't promise you the whole world, but I can try to give you a very happy life. I can't promise you that I'll never yell at you, but I can try to be patient with you, most of the time. I can't promise you I'll never make mistakes, but I can try my best to correct my faults. I can't promise you that I'll catch you every time you fall, but I will try to always be close so I can help you back up. I can't promise that our love will last forever like in fairy tales, but I can promise you that no matter what happens between us, I'll never forget the memories that I've made with you. ♥